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sorry lj. just a quick 411.. not too many details.
*got dumped by dave on our anniversary... no reason.
*wanted to die.
*saved from the knife by my mom.
*had to get rid of harley, but now the poochie bear is enjoying acres of land. muah!
*went down the shore, met a boy. thought he was nice,.. got dicked over.....story of my life.
*emily came from harrisburg in a horrible mess. divorce.
*living in the kevin and anita gordon youth hostile right now. no place to call my home.
*no contact with dave. how can you drop ur best friend in a matter of seconds. fucked up shit.
*my work was shown at the launching of the new EXPRESS FOR WOMEN AND MEN store. something positive?! yes!
*taught photography for gov' school for one week. resume plus.
*went on a date with a singing carpenter. definatley a no.
*jeremy came back to the east coast for a hot to visit. we made out and then he left.. back to cali.
*moved out of the gayborhood. 48 hoursof no sleep.
*emily joined the kev and nita youth hostile until we find a place together.
*i want her husband to die in the worst way... and feel the pain he has dished out to her.
*dirt poor.
* date with a nice boy who ended up being the biggest pothead ever. high school shit. too much.
*mick... yes. argh.
*never had so much drama in my life. i hate drama.
*feel like my best friend died.
*chicks i could not have ever made it through the past few months without..... my angels who have poured there unconditional love out to me,,,,...: anita, emily, lexis, joanna, and danielle. they saved me in moments of despair. times they have no idea about. times when hearing there voices on my voicemail have saved my life. literally.
*how have i fallen this hard? i wanted to just lay here and never get up. but, i have to go on , i have to take the oppurtunities that are arising. i HAVE to care. things will look up if i only let them. and i will.
so i got a job at trixie on south st. the manager alexis rox and i love her to death already and i'm so excited to be working for her. i can't believe how blessed i am to have so many good good girlfriends in my life right now that aren't sneaky little bitches like most chicks because i honestly hate girls. they are such assholes. i love all my boys so much and guys can be the best of friends and its grand.
so i have a date tonight with a really realy sweet hottie. i am absolutley stoked. he seems so interesting. ....
yay!
i have to get some relevant lyrics up on this piece asap. just not now. so long.
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| 07:54am 27/05/2003 |
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yay! the sun is shining!!!! finally!
so update me...
i graduated .. woohoooooooo!
i'm moving to old city in a month.
i am getting the cutest doggy...a sweetie boxer named harley!! kiss kiss!!! muah!
dave-o and i are peachy.
i am addicted to chocolate and i need help. help!
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| 07:27pm 23/05/2003 |
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- Full Name: amber lynn thompson
- DOB: january 17. 1981
- Current Location: philadelphia pa
- Current Clothes: jeans, black t, grey zip up plush hoodie, chucks
- Current Mood: bored.
- Current Music: 99 red baloons.
- Current Taste: flinstone vitamin
- Current Make-up: rimmel "east end snob" lip gloss, loreal black liquid liner, lorealblack mascara, street wear shimmer, mac studio fix.
- Current Hair: pony tail.
- Current thing I ought to be doing:packing.
- Current Desktop Picture: bouncing souls.
- Current Favorite Artist: nan goldin.
- Current Favorite Group: copeland.
- Current Book: book by liz halverson at school.
- Current CD in CD Player: 80s mix.
- Current tape in VCR/DVD: legally blonde.
- Current Worry: money/job.
LAST PERSON...
- You Talked to: dave o.
- You Hugged: arnoldt.
- You Instant messaged: jess v.
- You Yelled At: ?.
- You Kissed: dave 0.
FAVORITE...
- Foods: mexican, japanesse, and seafood
- Drink: pabst blue ribbon
- Color: pink.
- Album: currently : bjork...any
- Shoes: chucks or pointy shoes.
- Candy: peanut butter m &ms.
- Animal: american bulldog..and harley my new boxer ! xo!.
- TV Show:
- Movie: can't decide
- Song: 99 red baloons
- Vegetable: olive garden salad
- Fruit: strawberries
- Cartoon: home movies and family guy
ARE YOU...
- Understanding: yes.
- Open-minded: extremely.
- Jealous: yeah its my downfall.
- Arrogant: no.
- Insecure: sometimes.
- Interesting: i hope so.
- Random: somewhat yes!.
- Friendly: yes yes.
- Smart: yes.
- Moody: not usually.
- Independent: yup.
- Hard working: very much so.
- Organized: getting there.
- Emotionally Stable: more so lately.
- Shy: sometimes.
- Difficult: no.
- Bored Easily: no.
- Responsible: yes.
- Obsessive: sometimes.
- Sad: no.
- Happy: yes.
- Hyper: yes always.
- Trusting: yes.
- Talkative: yes yes yes!.
HAVE YOU EVER...
- Been kissed? yes.
- How many times: no idea.
- Eaten an entire box of Oreos? no
- Been on stage? yes.
- Gotten in a car accident? yes.
- Watched "Punky Brewster"? of course!.
- Been in love? yes.
FAVORITE...
- shampoo?: shimmer lights saves me.
- toothpaste?: aqua frsh..reminds me of my grandmom.
- Room in your house?: my bedroom.
- instrument? piano, drums, and guitar.
IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU...
- Cried? yes.
- Helped someone? yes.
- Bought something? yes.
- Gotten sick? yes.
- Gone to the movies? no.
- Gone out for dinner? yes.
- Said "I Love You?": yes.
- Written a real letter? no.
- Moved on? no.
- Talked to an ex? yes.
- Missed an ex? nope.
- Had a serious talk? yes.
- Missed someone? yes.
- Hugged someone? yes.
- Fought with your parents? a little.
- Fought with a friend? no.
DO YOU...
- Put on a "front"? no.
- If you got a tattoo, where would you get it, and what would it be?:pelvic area. two sparrow.. one evil one good.
-What color is your floor/carpet in your room?: its hardwood floor
-what was the last CD you bought? can't remmeber.
- How did you spend last summer? as a nanny in california
- When's the last time you showered? yesterday.
RANDOM..
- Are you wearing pajamas? no.
- Are you talking to someone online? no.
- What is your astrological sign? capricorn.
- What are you listening to/watching right now? 80s mix. |
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| 05:04pm 11/05/2003 |
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the past few days have been oh so strange. it sux because most of the hours are just a huge blur. that is definatly not a good sign.
at any rate, friday i have no clue what i did except for get really really fucked up over and over again. me and the boy had some beef with each other but it was definatley due to intoxication of sorts. no good.
saturday i assited a film shoot and got PAID for it. joy! then last night ... wow. everything was extremely surreal and has been up untill this point.
dave, pat, and i, went to a party... i definatley was trashed. afterwards mike and his chick joleen came to my apt to smoke with dave and i. after mike and jo left dave and i had crazy conversation untill four in the morning about the importance of a person having some form of passion for something in life. then the night just turned into what felt like a porno. then around 5 we went to bed. my mind was just churning with strange thoughts and whatnot. finally after fallling asleep i had a very surreal but vivid dream......
my parents were in it. mainly my mom, as it goes that my father and i do not really have a relationship. they found out somehow things about me that they don't know and should never ever know. my mom was hysterical. they disowned me. i felt so horribly wicked and dirty. it is so hard to even describe. my mom was begging me not to marry dave, telling me i should be marrying a member of the church. i then got swallowed up by an immense wave.
when i woke up this morning i felt really strange. i feel like i am in the twilight zone. i just talked to my mom and she sounded so strange,, edgy , upset. she said, "this is what will make my mothers day.." i say what. she says"if i can ask you a blatant question". of course i tell her. she says, "i'm so worried amber are you going to marry dave? he isn't a member of the church".. i'm thinking is this a continuation of the dream.
first of all dave and i have been together for a mere 3 months.. and yes i actually am so in love with him,,strangely so, and i think mi mum can tell. however, i am in no way thiinking of marriage at this point in my life.. i am just graduating and dave-o still has school. so i dont know what my mom is thinking and i told her this.
yes my faith is very important to me but it is all the same god and i don't feel like getting into a huge debate right now but that has been my surreal ass day.
so so long and fairwell for now i will be back on later with pix and other dirt.
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| 02:57pm 07/05/2003 |
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sometimes i feel so..
underappreciated. bah. i hate that shit.
sometimes i feel like..
martha fucking stewart. make dinner, make the bed, get the drinks, draw the bath.... bah.
sometimes i need...
cute little suprises and those quiet i love yous.
i guess this post has turned into a supressed bitching explosion.
sensitivity. ..... suck it.
i won an award from photo review mag at my opening. hot shit.
hope it's cash. in debt as usual.
it's beautiful out and it just dawned on me that i may not have gotten to take in the full beauty of the cotton candy pink cherry blossoms and they are all about to be gone. eek.
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| 02:20pm 11/04/2003 |
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Five details about you...
[x] fashion photographer.
[x] lost 93 pounds.
[x] potography, music, and my boy are life
[x] i'm 22.
[x] I'm broke.
Five details about your appearance right now...
[x] need to bleach my roots.
[x] I have no make up on.
[x] clean...just took a bubble bath.
[x] jeans, belt, shirt.
[x] red toenails.
Five things you did today
[x] coffee
[x] cigarettes
[x] bubble bath
[x] sat in the bathroom and talked to the boy while he shit.
[x] read the city paper.
Five things that everyone should know about you...
[x] I'm loud.
[x] i'm cheesy.
[x] music is a huge part of my life.
[x] i like people who can hold a conversation.
[x] i'm too nice and people take advantage of that. i hate that.
Five things you cant live without...
[x] Cigarettes and coffee.
[x] mascara and lip gloss.
[x] affection and passion.
[x] MUSIC.
[x] art.
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| 11:59am 11/04/2003 |
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yesterday was peach a rific. hah .. amber=dork.
anywho, the boy and i had our "speending time together day".
it was great! meep.. we went to the taco house for lunch,, walked around a bit. then we took a 4 hour nap which was great.
then we watched a movieeeeeee. then wee smoked with patty and the neighbors, watched scooby dooooo the movie. then my place... ADULT SWIM... and then my baby slept over.
it was a peachy day. when the hell are you coming back to me spring? i'm falling in a pit without you!!!
love, amber |
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| 12:46pm 08/04/2003 |
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friday night...
babysat cole and camille
saturday...
rode bikes with the boy, went to china town.
at night hot hot heat with dave w. and joanna was there!! yay! fun times.
after words met up with dave. got wasted ,, left car in bumblefuck. walked back to the apartment.
sunday am...
oh so tired. dave and i went to the converge show...amazing!!! met mark, denis, and louie louie there! i miss those guys. hey and i saw amy there! wooo wooo! :)
school is so stressful right now i could just die.
must go drink coffee and smoke cigs now.
my new cheetah lighter is so exciting.
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| 09:08am 03/04/2003 |
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mood: stressed music: arms of orion
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one month and counting. the show is may 2nd. eek! ekk!
list me.
*order graduation announcements
*order new business cards
*order publicity post cards
*myke shoots me thursday for my "senior portrait" aka rad fashion shot.
*6 30x 40 prints @ $125.00 each
*6 30x40 frames @ holy shit...i need $$$$$$$$$$
*mixed media goes like this..
*evidence project due april 8th
*packaging project
*collaborative project
*art history
*paper due April 14th
*advanced digital
*4 page spread.. all new work
*Screen printing
*definition ..hussy.. final project
*apology letters to shire and patty
*buy tix for doubletree party
tonight..
*dinner with daves grandmom
*scan portfolio
tommorow...
*meet jamila @ 9am to show her book
*11:30 doctors appointment
*4:30-1am babysit camille and cole
i will calapse.
xoxo amber |
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| 07:23am 02/04/2003 |
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night before last.
photo shoot. 80's bday party at the feathernest in the "pagoda" room.
after the shoot my boy came and we stayed the night.
it consisted of intoxication, a tons of bubbles jacuzzi, waterfall, and naked time all night. make out! it was the funnest night ever. we couldn't imagine leaving our faux japanese, mirrored ceilings, tea room. but in the morning we had to chek out into the real world which sucked. we could of just held one another all day and night. but reality sux and it set in. i love him. it's love and i can't believe it and it's so perfect.
this morning we meet at the gallery where the show will be to check out the space. May 2nd. it's getting closer and closer. gabe suggested my prints be 30 by 40. i'm stoked.
this weekend hot hot heat on saturday ...converge on sunday. it's cold and spring better get it's ass back here asap... or else!
borders sux right now. they do not have either of my top two choices of books i want right now. what the hell?... "the creative class" and "deli life". arghhhhhhhhhh come on!
gotta rock out,
love and miss everyone..
amber |
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| 11:49pm 23/03/2003 |
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how r you? i haven't seen you forever. i'm sorry but school and everything. bahhhhh.
senior thesis is on again.
the boy is great.
for wednesday i will make him chocolate covered strawberries (with girradelli chocolate of course).
my penpal where have you gone? how r you chickie? i miss you. i hope everythihng is well.
list me for tomorrow.
*7am move car.
*get coffee.
*study for exam.
*stop at the olive garden.
*11:30 exam
*post office... send two packages
*buy polaroids for evidence project
*buy cdrs
*give morton screenprint
*burn senior publication c.d.
*scan Patzsch shit and burn for presentation
*return books
*powerwash and then coat screen for project
*5:30 Brazillian dance
*rory..costumes
*room book it
*equipment..book it
*assistant..book them
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| 12:42pm 08/03/2003 |
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wednesday.. nyc.
MATTHEW BARNEY at the Guggenheim fucking incredible. have to go back this week.
ALSO a must see NAN GOLDINS show HEARTBEAT at the Matthew Mark gallery AMAZING. Two of the greatest shows. They have found there place in my top ten list for greatest shows of all time. WOW.
Yesterday i hit the GOLDMINE at village thrift. amazing glasswear. all definite collectables. all in mint condition ... full sets. holy shit...soooooo excited. And i found my baby the hottest track jacket eva eva.
TODAY it is so beautiful out. i can't get enough. i have major spring fever and i'm loving it.
went to the FLOWER SHOW yesterday with my mamacita.... the best in years. several remarkable metal pieces incorporated into the gardens.
Last night checked out the GENDER show on 12th and camac. BRILLIANT. H jo's installation blew me away. I am going back to the space today to photograph the work in medium format.
xoxoxoxo,
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Name = amber lynn
x. Location = philadelphia
x. Eyecolor = amber
x. Parents still together? = yes
x. Kids of your own? = no
x. Grandkids? = no
Preferences
x. Black and White/Color = color
x. Black/White = black
x. Red/Blue = red
x. Dogs/Cats = Dogs
x. Roses/Daisies = Roses
x. Beer/Liquor = beer pabst blue ribbon
x. Boxers/Briefs = boxers
x. Hair: bleached blonde or black
x. Boots/Shoes = Shoes
x. Food: Mexican/Italian = Mexican all the way
x. Dark/Light = Dark
x. Day/Night = Night
x. City/Country = City
Number...
x. of times I have been in love?: thrice
x. of times I have had my heart broken?: twice
x. of hearts I have broken? two
x. of guys/girls I have kissed?: no idea
x. of continents I have lived in?: 1
x. of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends?: all of my friends
x. of people I consider my enemies?: 3
x. of people from high school that I stayed in contact with?: 4
x. of things in my past that I regret?: no comment
Do you...
x. Color your hair? = yes
x. Have tattoos? = yes
x. Piercings? = yes
x. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend/both? = boyfriend
x. Have a crush? = no
x. What's their name? = n/a
x. Own a webcam? = no
x. Been in a wreck? = yes, several
x. Been arrested? = yes but i went to court and won. fucked those po.po up
x. Stolen a car? = no
x. Stolen anything? = yes
x. Drink? = yes
x. Posed for nude pics? = no
x. Been married? = no
x. Been divorced? = no
Right now...
x. What are you listening to? = piebald
x. What are you watching? = nothing
x. What time is it? = 12:28pm
x. What are you wearing? = dirty wash jeans, belt, and baseball tee
x. What're you drinking? = dunkin doughnuts french vanilla coffee extra cream,,,4 splendas
x. Eating? = nothing
x. Got both hands on the keyboard?= no
x. You sure bout that? = yes
x. Who are you talkin to? = no one
x. What other windows do you have open? = none
x. How bored are you? = very
x. Be anywhere, where would you be? = in bed with my baby cuddling or shopping in nyc
x. Who would you like to be with? = dave.. durrrr |
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| 03:32pm 15/02/2003 |
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| 03:27pm 15/02/2003 |
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Oh preston p. where has my passion gone? It has said goodbye and i can't stand it. BUT i must be standing it enough as i can't seem to get it back. Routines of slacker laziness are forming more and more everyday. Creeping up on me. Where has my passion gone?... my life, my therapy, my solace,...my only dear friend has left me. I pretend that it is in hibernation due to the peircing cold winter. Please come back soon. |
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last night was perfect and great. dave came over to my apt. he gave me a valentine card he made meee.. oh so cute. he also got me a monkeeeeeeee yay! it sings and dances. and he made me a ring awwwwwww. then we went and got the cheapest wine we could find. 4 bucks! oh how ghetto fabulous! we came back to the apt. made dinner together and ate in my room. then we drank our wine and lit alllllllllll of the candles in my room and... meep meep! then later we took the biggest bubble bath ever,,, and talked for hours... make out!this morning consisted of little petes coffeee..oh how i love thee yum yum! last night was the best valentine's day ever. i've fallen .. i've fallen so hardcore and it's splendid!
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| 11:44pm 12/02/2003 |
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four years of college are almost completed? what the hell? insane.
reality check.
bahhhhhhhh. and wohoooooooooo. mixed feelings.
i didn't see my hottie patootie today. whah. i miss him. we r such dorks.
v.day will consist of..
a picnic in my room, candles, bubble bath, holla holla!! :) and we will cook dinner together.
i'm making dave vanilla cupcakes with pink vanilla icing and chocolate one's too. with pink and red cheesy heart sprinkles and candies. heheheeee. getting him dorky heart pjs from the eek gap. 10 bucks! what what?!! oh so rad. also some other special suprises! meep meep!
tonight consisted of dave w. coming over to play ... then afterwards the wedding singer soundtrack and me,,, all me and my dancing baby and allison laughed so hard i thought she would peee. hah.
it's funny i have an art history test im the morning and i don't even care. boooo that's bad.
xoxooxx, amber*
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| 05:11pm 11/02/2003 |
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i was just on the elevator in my apt. building with a cop who had the last name "livewell" interesting. other interesting last names i've come across...... "lovejoy" (jeff bahh), "rosengrant" (em's hubbies last name!)..... "hart" (singer james hart from 18 visions)....and "gearhart" (cali mike).
i didn't get to shoot today which was dissapointing.. but for some reason i had an extra pep in my step. i think it was due to the fact that the sun was shining oh so bright..it reminded me not to fret that spring is coming! yay!
yesterday was daves birthday. he loved his presents, i made him a card, got him an old track jacket, and tix to a show. he was so excited. we went to west chester rock city for dinner with his parents. also i took him over to my parents house to meet my mama and dad and the jagman. it turned out great. my moms like "he's soooo cute!...well minus the lip ring" hahah.. she's funny.
so today is pats bday. dave and i are having him over my apt for dinner. it will be fun.
xoxoxox love amber*
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| 12:10am 10/02/2003 |
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it's like peaches and cream. dave is so fucking rad. meep meep. friday night we went to the arms of orion show. they rocked. i love all of daves friends to pieces. friday slept over daves... saturday came back to philly to shoot portraits for timmons and his little sis. oh so cute! then i went back to west chester rock city for the show which was in kennett. i missed arms of orion but i got there just in time to hear some crap ska band. it was soooooo funny. i danced with mark, dennis, christian, and dave, we skanked ! LOL it was so hilarious. the poor band playing had to know we were making fun of them. however the highlight of the night was when dave and i ran up to the front singing made up words and we both slipped and fell. and who had a skirt on. hmmm it wasn't dave. it was so great. hah. then we all went to amoras and then back to daves house.
today, came back to philly. was locked out of my apt so dave came over. we spent an hour busting open the door so i had to go buy a new door knob, lock, etc. yadda yadda yah.
then my mama and dad came to see me! joy! i missed my mamacita and my dad is nice now! we went to eat. it was fun fun fun!
tomorrow is daves birthday! yay!!!!!! xoxoxoox! it's h jo's toooooo! woooooooooohoooooooooooooooooooo.
cool days.. warm breeze.. sunny evenings...,, spring please hurry.
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